We all have them. We all stand firmly by them. We all think ours are noble and just. Some of us would fight to the ends of the earth defending them. This week, I have found that I would fight to the ends of the earth about one of my convictions.
I believe with every fiber in my being that Jesus is the way to God. The only way to redemption is to accept Christ as my savior, the gift that God gave us to bring us back to Him.
Scott said today it was the Holy Spirit at work in me and the further I get away from the happenings earlier in the day, the more I'm coming to agree. God showed himself to me today in a way He hasn't since my initial trip to China. I had a physical ache in my heart over an issue that began yesterday and it grew and grew the more I thought and later prayed about it. I haven't been able to speak about this without sobbing so yes, God is definitely at work because I don't cry over many things.
I fought passionately for something today. I had tears streaming down my face and stated my case as it were. I didn't raise my voice, tell someone they were stupid or wrong, cuss anyone out, I simply said that the belief or conviction I held in my heart made it impossible for me to accept the situation. I won't even support the decision that was made.
I love the person that made the decision that broke my heart today. I fear however that I've damaged a relationship and I'm grieving over that. After any confrontation I've had, I've had the moments where I wish I could take back something I've said......I haven't had that moment and I don't think I will.
I'm not a dweller, I don't repeat over and over what was said, done, etc. Nothing can be changed. It's done, I've said my peace, others have said theirs. I've got to look forward. How do we keep this from happening again? This is what I've got to focus on now. A line has been crossed and the potential to fall deeper into the trap is there. What can I do to hold this person back? Is it even up to me to do that? I'm going to sit back and listen to what He wants me to do......I sure hope He speaks loudly to me!
Brown Eyed Girl
About Me
- Nikki
- In the 24 years I’ve spent with my husband I’ve learned many things: there is no “right” way to fold towels and put them away; that there is more than one way to combat fleas; that you can wash bottles in the dishwasher without having to sterilize them before each use; that I am a wife, not a warden; that no matter what his dreams are I must support and encourage him to chase them; and, to remember at the end of every day God put us together. No question in my mind, my purpose on earth is to love my husband and children every single day. In 1985 I fell in love with a boy who was so unlike me and in 2009, I am in love with the man he became. I cannot imagine doing life with anyone else!
A MOMENT
Feeling the heartbeat of a dolphin!
BEAUTIFUL
Truly One of God's Most Beautiful Creatures
Outside The Box
We Praise You Because We Are Fearfully & Wonderfully Made
1 comments:
I just want to say that this story, despite my convictions, doesn't end in a bed of roses. As a result of how I felt, I also felt compelled to make a change in my life. I did and it altered a relationship, not for the better.
However, I will admit that it did alter my life for the better. I have a clear heart and a better understanding of who I am. And, I'm proud of myself for standing my ground!
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